Thursday, October 27, 2011

Your Guide to Safe, Non-Toxic Makeup

Even though my treatments have been done since March, my journey continues. I am always trying to incorporate things into my life that would help me live healthier and reduce the risk of the cancer coming back. One of the things that I feel is a big issue is the toxins that we have in so many things that are used every day on our skin, in our hair, to brush our teeth, and in our makeup.

I came across this article below, and hopefully you can find it helpful and somewhat eye opening.

Your Guide to Safe, Non-Toxic Makeup

The article also provides links to websites where you can go to rate your products.....and its not only for makeup....you can look up practically every product you use in the home (lotions, cleaners, meat, cars!). I thought it very interesting! The site I checked out was: http://www.goodguide.com/

I have to confess...I'm still using a lot of "bad" products. Realistically, its very difficult to throw out everything and buy all new "good" stuff in one go! It takes quite a bit of time to research which products are better, and then to find them....and it could get pretty pricey! But slowly I've been able to change things one by one. For example, I use Green Works to clean with and I'm washing my face with a natural bar of soap made with Olive oil and Aloe:)  It's a start right!

Hopefully I can find some of the makeup products noted in the article so that I can start a makeup make-over!!


Thursday, October 6, 2011

I made it.....the whole 60km!

September 10th and 11th I walked and walked.......and walked! I made it....the whole 60km! :)

It was the Weekend to End Women's Cancers. After all the requests for donations and all the fundraising efforts (the Hip Hop for Hope "HHH" stuff).....it was finally here! I will walk you through my experience at this event:

Saturday morning was an early start....I woke up around 6am after pressing snooze quite a few times. Here we are in the car on the way to Downsview Park, where the walk started.




Go Team PINK DIAMOND! I got some lays from the dollar store for us to wear.....I wanted everyone to have a touch of pink on them!


Throughout the whole walk there were these cars and vans driving up and down playing loud music and cheering us on as we took each step. It was very encouraging to hear the upbeat tunes as we took our long trek. 



A pic of the team in front of Princess Margaret Hospital! There's a smile on my face.....but I'm really crying on the inside. This was about the half way point that day, and my feet were already feeling like they were going to fall off!


The oldest walker that weekend....I believe she was 99 years old, or something crazy like that! Go grandma! I'm sure she cheated a little, and got the cars to shuttle her along the way....but I was still very impressed that she was out there in the hot sun doin' her thing! 


I almost didn't think I would make it, but here we are at the finish line (see the pink flags in the background?). The end of day 1!!! YAAAAAYYY!!!


Day 2: That's a real man in there, which I knew....but he still startled me when he moved. I was surprised that I even attempted day 2, because at the end of day 1 I was ready to give up. I was so tired, my legs were cramping, and most of my friends didn't bother to sign up for the 2nd day. But I like to finish what I set out to do....so when I got up Sunday morning, surprisingly with the ability to feel my feet, I decided to push through go for it!



Didn't take much pictures on Sunday. I was in too much pain to think about pictures....I was just focusing on the finish line. After 2 days of walking.....and a total of 17 hours out on the streets of Toronto, the finish line was finally in sight! I actually got Wayne to walk on Sunday with me cause none of my friends could stay with me for the whole day and I didn't want to be alone! 



Overall it was a great experience! It was wonderful to see so many people come out to support this great cause! As we walked along there were words chalked on the sidewalks, people with posters or signs in front their homes, kids and adults waving at us and cheering us on. We read and heard messages like: "We love you walkers!", "Thank you for walking!", "You can do it!", "Kick Cancer's Ass!"

The best part was that people set up tables outside their homes and offered things like lemonade, chocolate, freezies, coffee etc. It was so nice of them! And so refreshing for us walkers! 

Thank you to everyone who supported me in my walk! It was a nice way to mark my 1 year anniversary since my diagnosis. I can't believe its been so long already. I was just so proud that after everything that has happened in the past year, I had recovered and was strong enough to finish all 60km. WOOOOHOOOOO!!!
[I've already signed up for next year, so feel free to join my team "Pink Diamond". The password is "Kristal".]


Monday, September 5, 2011

Let's bring an end to women's cancers! : News : SunNews Video Gallery

Here is a promo that was on Suntv this morning for the Weekend to End Women's Cancers. The walk is this weekend already! I can't believe it's finally here.

Let's bring an end to women's cancers! : News : SunNews Video Gallery

I've made my minimum donation plus some, and I'm ready to do this! Wish me luck.....I hope I make it all the way:)

[To find out more about the walk you can visit my personal donation page: www.endcancer.ca/goto/Kristal]



Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Not back to work as yet:)

That's right....I'm still off work:) It's been quite back and forth with regards to my return to work date.

My long-term disability coverage has ended (as of June 30th), and I talked to my work about returning in July. But I still have to do reconstructive surgery, and I was hoping to have it done before I went back to work. Unfortunately, my initial consult appointment with the plastic surgeon got postponed from June to September, and when I questioned the receptionist about my possible surgery date, she said probably not until the end of the year or early next year!

So, I do not get my wish of finishing my reconstruction before going back to work. However I decided to enjoy the rest of my summer, so I'm taking unpaid time off until October! This works out quite well for me because I got to go home to Trinidad....which is where I am now! :)  I'm the Maid of Honour for a close friend's wedding, and I'm so glad I'm able to make it down for her special day. Also, since I have the time, I decided to visit for 3 whole weeks!

I haven't been home since xmas 2009, and this will be the first time also since I've been through this 'journey' in the past year. (I can't believe its been almost a year already since I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer!! Sept 13th ). So far the trip has been wonderful....and its so nice to get to see all my friends and family! They're all surprised at how well I'm looking (I guess they expected to see some signs of my struggle), and a lot of people have commented on how they love my hair short. I think I might keep it short for a bit:)

After all this free time to enjoy myself, it's going to be hard to go back to work!

Here are a few pics from Tobago (we went there for a few days as soon as we came in):






Thursday, July 21, 2011

Tamoxifen....Urrrrgh!!

Sorry I've been so scarce these days! I guess it can be considered a good sign.....I've been feeling much better and keeping quite busy. Also its such nice weather, so been making the most of the outdoors while it lasts!

Got quite a few updates.....so I will start with one that has been pretty significant to me....TAMOXIFEN!

I know everyone sees me getting back to normal life, and it seems like its all over....I've beaten cancer...Yaay! But my treatment is not actually over. My oncologist has recommended that I take this drug, Tamoxifen, for the next 5 YEARS! 

My cancer was estrogen-receptor positive therefore estrogen would promote the growth of these cancer cells. Tamoxifen basically stops the production of estrogen in my body in order to reduce the chances of the cancer coming back again. Sounds great right......except the side effects of this drug include the following:
- usual menopausal symptoms (some serious hot flashes!!)
- blood clots
- strokes
- uterine cancer
- cataracts

The dosage recommended is 1 tablet each day. I started taking it for a month, and the hot flashes were pretty bad! I was waking up throughout the night in hot sweats, and I started to wonder if this drug would do me more harm than good. I started to worry about those other side effects also....like UTERINE CANCER!! Am I going to take this drug to prevent breast cancer, but then give myself another, more serious type of cancer??? So I decided to stop taking it and do some research first before I made a final decision on whether or not I should take this drug for a couple more years.

This decision has been on my mind now for 3 months, and I told myself that my decision will be made by the end of this month! I've gone back and forth, thinking of the pros and cons.

Of course I don't want the cancer to come back, but this is definitely not a sure solution....it just reduces my risk. There really isn't much research done for women in my age group who have taken Tamoxifen, so I have to rely on studies done mainly with post-menopausal women. However..... I'm not post menopausal! 

Its been a tough decision for me, but I've been told that no matter what decision I make, I'm the one who has to live with it....so I have to be comfortable with whatever I do.

For a while I have been leaning towards not taking it because I just feel so uncomfortable about playing with my hormones for so long. I have talked to a few people in the medical profession, and I have been assured that the risk of those serious side effects are very minimal....especially since I'm so young. 

Also my oncologist said he would be happy if I take it for at least 2 years.....after which he will possibly try to convince me to continue it for 5 years.....which I may or may not agree to. But he believes the benefits of Tamoxifen far outweigh the risks.

If I do take the Tamoxifen, I have made plans to go in for regular pelvic exams and eye exams to ensure that the Tamoxifen is not adversely affecting anything.

So with this plan, I have decided that I will start to take the Tamoxifen again. The thought of the cancer re-occurring is one of my biggest fears now, so I want to do whatever I can to reduce that risk!

I really hope I'm making the right decision!




Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Hip Hop for Hope Workshop

I have been planning another exciting fundraiser!! It's a Hip Hop dance workshop, and anyone can attend! It's happening this Sunday:)

I've already reached my goal of $3,200 for the Weekend to End Women's Cancers.....thank you so much to everyone who donated!! This workshop is to help some of my team members reach their goal as well! So if you've always wanted to try some Hip Hop dancing, here's your chance...and it's for a great cause!


You can see more information on our website: www.hiphopforhope.ca



Friday, May 27, 2011

The Rebirth of my Hair :)

My hair is finally growing back! And its so soft.....I can't stop rubbing my own head! :)

Each day, as it comes in thicker and thicker, I feel more like a normal person again. I've retired my wig now....never really enjoyed wearing that thing anyways. It was too hot and itchy! Especially now that its getting warmer, and my hot flashes are more frequent, the wig would just be unnecessary torture. I prefer going au naturale.

Yeah I'm still getting hot flashes, as I'm in "chemopause". My period hasn't come back yet. Not sure when it will or if it will.......although since I'm so young there is a good chance I will receive my monthly presents again! Never have I looked so forward to getting those!

Anywayz...back to my hair. I can't say it was all bad to lose my hair. I have kind of enjoyed not having to style my hair everytime I'm going out......I just wash and go! I take only 2 hours to get ready now instead of 3 :P

I have also been so delighted to not have to shave for the few months. But now its all growing back in full force....I think I'm even getting more hair than before in some unwanted areas....like what's up with my sideburns??? Geeeeez can't a girl get a break.....is it too much to ask that my underarm hair and leg hair and unnecessary facial hair (and 'other area' hair) just don't come back?!?! I guess beggars can't be choosers:P

I am super glad that my head of hair is filling in now though. Here are my new fuzzies:




Woohoooo!!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Esperanza Update and Pics

Forgot to give you guys an update on how the Esperanza event went (on May 1). Well it was a HUGE SUCCESS!! Better than I could've even hoped :)

Everyone said they had so much fun and we got so many positive comments about everything.....the venue, the live band, the food, the raffle prizes, the entertainment and just the overall great feeling throughout the night! It made me feel so good to hear all the wonderful comments....and it just made all our efforts definintely worth it (times 10!).  Best of all, we made enough money so that Wayne and his brothers are now able to participate in the Ride to Conquer Cancer. AND there is extra money available to also help some of my team members participating in the Weekend to End Women's Cancers. Both events are to raise money for Princess Margaret Hospital (where I was treated).

There were many requests (and some threats) for us to make Esperanza an annual event.....our response: "YES, OF COURSE"! Its amazing how many people want to help such a great cause, and how good it makes people feel to be part of something positive like this!

Here are some pics of the night:

The team that put the night together! (Feel.So.Good Team):

Some of the raffle prizes (The tickets were 2 for $5, 5 for $10 OR 20 for $20! So many people were buying 20....it was great!):


The performers:



Some of the members of the Live Band:

The DJ's:

We served fruit punch:

Me with some of the volunteers that helped us that night (we couldn't have pulled this off without them):

A shot from above, so you can get an idea of the venue:

The staff that helped us out, and some of the goodies we served:

Thanks again to everyone who made this night happen! :)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Return to Work

Now that my treatments are over, and I am beginning to get back to "normal" life again, I have to think about my return to work. My feelings about this.....definitely not excitement....more anxiety and nervousness.

One reason I'm a bit anxious about starting work again is that I'm afraid I'll fall back into the same busy busy routine I had before my cancer diagnosis. I was working crazy hours, dancing quite a bit and pretty much didn't have much time to take care of myself. I always ate out, hardly ever had time to cook anything (and wasn't really motivated to cook). I didn't get to sleep enough as I would get home late on many nights, or end up doing work before I went to bed. And I was under a lot of stress with so many things going on and with the demands of work.

Now that I've had a chance to take a step back and re-evaluate my life, I've realized that I had my priorities all wrong! I feel like this diagnosis was meant to be a wake up call for me. A slap in the face and a "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?!?!?"

But I was just doing what so many other people do. I wanted to work hard so that I can earn more money and be "successful". I found it hard to say no and just kept adding things onto my plate....getting caught up in the busy lifestyle which was not exactly the best lifestyle for my health.

Another thing that makes me nervous about going back to work is the fact that I've been out of work since September! Will I remember what I'm supposed to do or all the technical stuff? Will I be able to handle the workload when I go back since I've been out of it for so long? I'm sure they'll re-train me, but its still a bit of a scary thought.

I've been going to this "Return to Work" session at Wellspring which has been really great! There is a small group of us in this 8 week session, and it feels intimate and very supportive. We all get to discuss what we've been through and how much its affected us (which I realized is more than I thought). We share our fears and concerns, and then we get some excellent advice from the others. Its nice to know that there are other people out there thinking the same things as I am, and that its not just me going crazy!

I'm getting a little more prepared mentally to get back to work. But in the meantime, very much enjoying having the time to really take care of myself these days! I just hope I can keep it up once things start to get a bit more busy.

Friday, May 6, 2011

HHH - The cutest kids!

I mentioned before that I was planning a Hip Hop For Hope fundraiser, where we would be going to a few schools and teaching hip hop in order to raise money for my walk, The Weekend to End Women's Cancers. Well, over the past 2 months, we went to 3 different schools, and we had SO MUCH FUN!

The kids loved it, we loved it, and the feedback from the teachers were great! I have the cutest video to show you from one of the schools. We've been teaching from Kindergarten to Grade 8. Here are some of the little ones in action:


Aren't they adorable?? :D

Saturday, April 23, 2011

"Esperanza" means Hope

One of the things that has been keeping me busy, but also super excited, is a fundraiser called "Esperanza": A Salsa Fundraising Event & Gala.

My dear boyfriend is doing the Ride to Conquer Cancer on June 11-12th, 2011, and needs a minimum of $2,500 in order to participate. Since both of us love Salsa dancing, we thought we should have a salsa party to help him raise the money.....and that was the birth of "Esperanza"!

We started planning this event while I was still doing chemo treatments, and it has brought me great joy! It was something to look forward to.....to keep my mind busy instead of just lying there feeling sorry for myself. And now I can't believe its almost here. It's just one week away!

The response has been incredible, and we're so happy that so many people have been wanting to support this event, and help us make it a success! Thank you!

I've got my outfit picked out already, and just working on the last minutes details during the next week:)  EXCITED!!!

Venue: The Richmond (Located in Downtown Toronto)
477 Richmond Street, Toronto, ON
Date: May 1, 2011
Time: 5:30pm-12:00am
Cost: $20.00
**Tickets must be purchased in advance

More information can be found at: www.feelsogood.ca/FSG/Esperanza.html

Friday, April 1, 2011

Me in the Media....again

Recently I've been interviewed for a couple things, and I'm pretty happy to be able to share my story.

Glow Magazine:
Glow magazine is helping to promote the Shoppers Drug Mart Weekend to End Women's Cancers (the 2 day 60km walk I'll be doing Sept 10-11, 2011), and they wanted to do an article on a cancer survivor who is a first time walker. Since I had done that CP24 interview before, my contact somehow got passed along to an editor of the magazine. I met up with her to tell my story, and the article should be coming out in the June issue.

Toronto Star
The Toronto Star is doing an article on  young women with breast cancer. They interviewed the founder of Rethink, which is an organization that support young adults concerned about or affected by breast cancer. I attend really fun and interesting monthly get-togethers that they host called "Live Laugh Learn", so I'm known by the team. The Star wanted to interview a young woman affected by breast cancer to get an idea of the issues that we face that older women may not. So they contacted me and asked if I would be willing, and I said "Of course!" This article came out today. Check it out here: http://www.healthzone.ca/health/article/965885

Research Project - Ryerson student
I was also contacted by a Ryerson University student who is doing a journalism project on young women with breast cancer. I guess its a hot topic these days. She's been meeting with a couple of cancer survivors to hear their stories, and get a good idea of what we go through. I was happy to share my story as well.


I am always willing to talk about what I've been through if its going to help increase awareness of the issue and to support a good cause! I kind of feel like if I use my experience for something good, then I didn't go through all of this in vain!

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Post chemo emotions

A lot of people have commented that in my posts I've been very upbeat and positive. I was asked if it's difficult to stay so positive throughout this whole journey. It actually didn't really seem that difficult to me because I think I've always been the type to see the bright side of things....to see the glass half full. And I think I've been very lucky to have such great support around me.....people who have kept a positive attitude, and who lift my spirits.

But I do have my moments and I was actually surprised that I had a breakdown after I was done my last chemo. I thought since I was done that I would definitely be happy and that things will just get better! But instead I realized I was feeling a bit down and maybe sorry for myself. I saw this woman on the streetcar one day with long wavy hair, and I thought how my hair used to look like that if I wet it and put some good product in it.........oh how I missed my hair. I almost started crying on the streetcar. Then one night as I was lying in bed, I happened to think back to the surgery and what that entailed.....not the best memory. I did have a bit of a cry. I didn't know why I was getting so emotional cause I was pretty good throughout chemo!

Finally it all came out. Everything built up inside of me and the tears just flowed and flowed one night (all over my pillow and bf's shoulder). That was exactly what I needed! The next day I felt so much better!

I thought about it, and wondered why I got so upset. Here's my conclusion: I figure I was busy fighting during chemo. My mind was occupied dealing with the side effects, and getting myself better before the next treatment. I was busy focusing on killing all the cancer cells. Now that its over, the fight-mode has been switched off and I had time to reflect back on things. I no longer have that next chemo to "look forward" to, but instead I have the rest of my life to think about, which is a bit stressful. I wonder have I done enough to get rid of the cancer? Is it going to come back? I have time to think about what I've been through, and now I have to live with the scars it has left on me physically and emotionally.

I met up with another cancer survivor the day after my breakdown, and she said she went through the same thing! This is definitely not something that you're told to expect, but I guess its common. So that was comforting to know that it wasn't just me going through this.

I'm ok now. Still happy to be done chemo, and everyday I feel my strength and energy growing little by little, which is a very good feeling! But there are definitely the ups and downs throughout this.......that's life right!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Me and my twin

I never thought about how confusing my different looks might be to people who don't really know me and don't know what's going on. There's a shoppers on the corner where I live, and there's this nice Filipino lady who works there who always says hi to me. I think its cause she thought I was Filipino also (I get that alot).

A few days ago when I went to buy some stuff there I saw her again and waved and smiled. She waved back and then asked "Are there two of you??" Hahaha... I thought.that was too funny!

I just chuckled and told her no, its just me....there was a confused look on her face. She had another customer with her so I didn't go on to explain why she would be seeing me with long hair one day, and then a bandana on my head the next day (obviously showing that there isn't really any hair underneath it at all).Or maybe she saw me when I cut my hair really short.....before it fell out....and then she wondered how it grew back so quickly!

One day I'll reveal the mystery of my different looks to her. For now, its kinda fun having a twin :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Now what?

YAY I'm done chemo!! The side effects for this last one were probably the easiest of all the treatments. The only thing was that I was pretty tired. But I'll take that any day, over the aches and pains or the nausea!

So now what? That's the question I've been getting from everyone. Well there are a few things that will be happening:

1) I'll be working on getting my strength and health back. This chemo has really drained me, and I know it will take quite some time for me to regain all my strength. I'm going to continue my gentle Yoga classes, and then when I feel I've outgrown that, maybe I can upgrade to some regular Yoga classes! I would also like to start back a few dance classes soon to help get my body back into that stuff:) I did go to see a Naturopath to help me get on track with repairing my body....fix all the damage that the chemo has done.

2) The doctors are going to put me on Tamoxifen for the next 5 years. This is a hormonal medicine which will block the estrogen in my body since my cancer was estrogen-receptor positive....or something like that (I don't even know if what I said makes sense). Anywayz, I will have to take these tablets every day and there will be more menopausal like side effects from this also. I'm having enough hot flashes these days as it is....I hope it doesn't get too much worse!!

3) Sometime in the near future I would like to do reconstructive surgery. Get myself a nice new booby....maybe ask them to pump up the other one a little bit while they're working in that area anywayz. I have an appointment with the surgeon in June so I'll find out what my options are then.

4) I gotta go back to work at some point.....boooo. Not sure yet when I'll be going back, but I do know that I'm not ready to go back too soon. I think I will really need to recover properly first. My job was a very busy one, with pretty long hours and quite a bit of stress at times, so I also have to consider if I want to put myself through that again or maybe try something different. Decisions decisions!!

5) I'm working more now on my diet - being aware of what I'm eating and trying to learn how to be healthier. I want to learn to cook alot more things so that I don't end up eating out too much (like I did before). My dear mother has been the one cooking for me since my surgery, but she's going to be leaving me soon....heading back home to Trinidad :( So I'm going to have to learn to cook for myself now! I know a few things, but I really never used to cook that much. Now I have good motivation though ..... time to get cooking!

So those are the main things that I have on my plate now that I am done with the Chemo. Oh and I'm waiting for my hair to start growing back too!! I see a few are starting to grow out already .... yaaaay. But its not a full head of hair.....I just look like a balding old man right now. Not cute!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Last Chemo Treatment...DONE!!

Today, Wednesday March 2nd, 2011, was my last treatment of chemo!!!!!! What a greaaaaaaat feeling it is! I am just so relieved that I don't have to go back there in another 3 weeks to get poked again by an awful needle. So glad I won't have to come home and wait for the pains to begin, and have to lock myself up in my apartment for a week!

Well I guess I still have to get past this week first. But after this, I'm on my road to recovery! I can get back to a normal life. I don't have to worry about having a "bad" week from chemo again!

I RANG THAT BELL AND IT FELT SOOOO GOOD!



I had my mom and brother with me today, and a couple of my new Princess Margaret friends!:

My very nice, sweet nurse, Jessie

My bossom buddy! Her last chemo day was today also!! Woohooo! We're done!

My volunteer friend, Helen. She's been at all my chemo treatments! Such great support and she has the best hugs!

Afterwards, my boyfriend joined us and we went for a celebratory lunch! Now I'm home....so tired cause I think I only slept for about 2 to 3 hours last night! I'm not sure if it was cause of the steroids I am on, or because I was nervous and anxious for today. Maybe a combination. But I'm about to pass out now.

Before I go though, one more scream of joy: WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO YAAAAAAAAYYYYYY I'M DOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 28, 2011

I am now a member of a special group!

You can't just get into this group. You actually don't even want to be a part of it. But once you're in, its kinda nice. And once you're in, you are never kicked out. It's the group of breast cancer survivors, which I've realized is  like a sorority or sisterhood.

This week I went with my boyfriend to meet a lady about an event space for a fundraising event we are planning. She discussed all the details and was happy to give us the space free of charge, which was so wonderful! The funds raised from the event are going to Princess Margaret Hospital, and she is a cancer survivor who was treated there.

She started to mention what a great place Princess Margaret is and that she had a really positive experience there. I agreed with her and told her that I am being treated there also. She looked at me in shock...."You have Cancer???" And she said "Take it off." So I took off my hat to expose my bald head. All of a sudden this bond was formed between us. We started chatting about our doctors, our treatments, our side effects. At the end of our little meeting she said "Come here my sister" and pulled me in for a hug.

So that's what made me think about this sisterhood that I'm now a part of. Through our experiences with cancer, we are united. Noone else can really truly understand what you're going through unless they've been through it as well. That's why during this journey, my fellow cancer survivors have been invaluable to me and have helped me so much to get through this!

The closest friends I have made recently are 2 women who are pretty much at the same stage in their treatments as I am. One of them I met in my pre-surgery class, and she took me under her wing like another mother. The other lady I met at a workshop at the hospital....she's also 28 and coincidentally our last chemo is going to be the same day.....March 2nd YEAHHHH!!

I've been in touch with them throughout the whole process, and we compare notes constantly. It helps me to feel less anxious about my side effects, just knowing that someone else is feeling similar things happen to their body. And it just helps to talk and laugh a bit about what's going on. I really don't know what I would've done without them!

So I am happy to be a part of this sisterhood! I've met some amazing women and I know I'll meet many more. I definitely didn't want to be a part of it, but now that I am, I feel very welcomed and comfortable....and I love my new sisters!

Friday, February 25, 2011

I need to pace myself!

As you have probably realized, I like to keep myself busy! Last weekend was filled with fun!

I went for wings on Fri and watched "I am number four".....which I thought was a pretty good movie.

Saturday I went to the Bachata Festival. The Latin group I was a part of (before all this cancer stuff happened) was performing, so I went to support and see what they've been up to....they were great! I did some dancing, but realized I get tired a lot faster now. I couldn't even finish one song without being completely out of breath! So most of the night I just sat and chatted and watched other people dance....which I really enjoyed!

Sunday was a trip to the Auto show......some very nice cars! Lots of walking though. I did sit in quite a few cars so that I could get some rest in between...and check out the car interiors of course.

There was a holiday here in Toronto on Monday (Family Day). Spent it with the boyfriend's family. They planned to work out P90X style! I thought it was a good idea to try the P90X yoga, since I've been enjoying my yoga classes so much lately! Oh wow it was hard....much tougher than my GENTLE yoga classes.

So this week I have been paying for my busy weekend. I've felt so tired over the past few days! Since I started chemo, I've done some light exercise....never enough to make my muscles hurt. But maybe I pushed a little too much with that P90X yoga. The muscle pain didn't feel like a good muscle pain; it was more like a mild version of the chemo pains. I found that my skin got extra sensitive, and I felt colder than usual (it was difficult for me to get warm). Maybe my body can't handle all that exercise right now so I guess I should take it easy and I gotta pace myself! Soon Kristal....soon you'll be able to get back your energy and work out like before!

Friday, February 18, 2011

R.I.P. Lola

Last month my boyfriend's grandmother/lola passed away.....another victim of Cancer. She had been battling Lymphoma and Multiple Myeloma for the past few years. I've just been thinking about it the past few days because the funeral was right after my 4th treatment. I probably should have been resting my body and taking it easy, but I couldn't. I knew my boyfriend and his family were feeling alot more pain than I was, and I wanted to be there....for any support I could give. So I forgot about my pains for a little bit and went to the viewing and the funeral over the weekend.

It's just a reminder of how much pain this disease can cause. How many lives it takes. How many families lose their loved ones.

Sure Lola was 84, so she did have alot of years under her belt. But maybe she could have enjoyed quite a few more years, if it wasn't for the cancer. I didn't know her for very long, but I know she was an amazing woman who was loved a whole lot. She was so pleasant, always making people laugh, and she loved to smile for pictures!

Wayne and his brothers have decided to do the Ride to Conquer Cancer in honour of their dear Lola and for myself. I feel so touched that they are doing this.....its such a great gesture of their love and support! You can learn more about it, make a donation and see Lola's smiling face in the following link:
Ride to Conquer Cancer - Wayne's personal page

I feel lucky because right now I'm not battling for my life. I can't imagine how hard it must be though for those who are fighting for their lives, and I'm sure it takes so much strength for themselves and their families. Going through this journey has definitely brought me into contact with alot of cancer patients and their stories. It's quite scary, sometimes overwhelming and it really breaks my heart! My thoughts and prayers go out to all those patients and their loved ones. Don't worry.....one day we will conquer cancer!

R.I.P. Marcosa Barbaza (Lola)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Survived 5th treatment

The worst is over now from the 5th treatment. I've survived another one!! This was better than the 4th treatment, I guess cause my body has gotten used to this chemo drug somewhat. The pains weren't nearly as bad as the last time....I didn't even have to take any painkillers!

I did still get some pains mainly in my knees and back and I think the hot flashes were a bit more frequent this time. I wake up many times in a sweat during the night. During the day I continuously keep taking my hat off my head when I heat up, then putting it on again when my head gets cold, off and on, off and on (I usually use a hat cause you get quite cold when you have no hair on your head!). Up to yesterday I couldn't stand for too long or I would feel faint....almost fainted again while trying to buy some valentines day cards. My stomach has been quite sensitive these days....it hurts for every thing! My period is all messed up. When I blow my nose, I get spots of blood coming out. My heart beats faster than usual and I get winded very quickly. But overall, its much better than I expected!

[Sorry if this is too much info....just trying to give you a full picture of what's going on....the little things that are probably rarely mentioned.]

Oh and here is a pic me getting the dreaded drug. That's ice packs on my hands and feet which are used to prevent them from tingling while you get the chemo. Very 'Cool' isn't it! Ok maybe not. I was actually freezing because of those damn ice packs, so they brought me some nice heated blankets to through over myself!!



I did take it very easy for the past week and watched alot of tv, as I mentioned I probably would. But I was happy that I was well enough to go out for a nice Valentines dinner :) The bf and I had planned to just do dinner the weekend after since I didn't expect to be able to move much, but Monday I woke up with minimal pains, so Valentines dinner was on! I had a Valentines lunch date with mummy also! It was a good day :)

I was also well enough to do some nail painting while watching the grammies....check it out:

I got a nail art set for christmas (thanks Cindy!), so I wanted to try it out. I know I need some practice....but a good first try right?? :P

Now time to have more fun for the next 2 feel-good weeks :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

5th one is done!!! Only 1 left!

Just had my 5th chemo yesterday and everything went really smoothly! I only got poked once again and I've had no serious side effects as yet. I know the pains will start soon unfortunately. But for now I'm just taking it easy and relaxing at home cause I'm not exactly feeling 100%.

My stomach feels a little bloated, but I still have a healthy appetite! They've got me on some steroids to help prevent allergic reactions to the chemo. So the steroids give me some energy, and also make me hungry often enough! The doctor said I might put on some weight, so I'm trying to control my eating somewhat! I know packing on a few pounds may not be the worst thing though....I'll get some curves on this body!! hehe.

I have to go get my expensive injection today (to keep my immune system up) and then I will come right back home and probably watch tv/movies for the rest of the day :)

I'm so excited that I only have one more treatment left now!! Looking back, it seems like the time flew! In 3 weeks I get to ring that bell! Woohooooooooooo!!

Monday, February 7, 2011

My relationship and cancer

When I first found out I had cancer, one of my biggest worries was how is this going to affect my relationship with my boyfriend! The relationship was pretty new (just a few months in), but so far I knew we had a great thing going. Now this cancer had to jump into my life and make things difficult in an already difficult dating world!

I wondered how he was going to deal with me losing a breast. Is he still going to find me attractive when I lose my hair from the chemo and when I start looking sickly? What's going to happen when I can't go out and do the things we usually do because I'll be recovering from surgery, or too tired from the treatments? I didn't want to become a needy girlfriend...that's just not my style...but I knew that I would need him....need his support during this trying time in my life. All of this scared me!

I've been a lucky gal though! My man definitely stepped up to the challenge! He was the one at my side when I first found out my diagnosis, and he's been by my side every step of the way. I felt horrible because I didn't want this to be a burden on him! This was my problem and I didn't want it to ruin both our lives..... he didn't sign up for all of this! But he told me that we were in this together! 

His name is Wayne and his support has been incredible. I never would have thought that during one of the most difficult times in my life that I would find a happiness like I've never felt before. It seems like he was brought into my life at just the right time! This week he wrote the following facebook note which brought me to tears (I've gotten his permission to share it on here):

JACKPOT

Sometimes I look back at my 25 years (plus the years that I was a kid) and think, what the hell have I done to bring me to where I am now.  When it comes to happiness, right now, I am very happy.  It's all relative, but for me, I've worked hard at setting myself up for the happiness that I'm feeling now.  Sad to say, there was a bit of materialism to it.  Cars, clothes, real estate ... it sounds bad, but it wasn't even about status or anything like that.  I had and still have a passion for those things, so I felt they were good investments for my happiness.  Luckily, I'm somehow both an impulsive buyer AND saver.  The end result is that I had fun and I'm not in debt (if you don't include a mortgage :S).  What else makes me happy?  People! Family, friends, ... and hot girls (hot to me, remember everything is relative).  My family is great, and my last note proves that.  Friends are perfect because I've selectively chosen them.  I don't kick it with those who rank in the a-hole or biatch categories.  Girlfriend? hmm ... let's take a moment to break that down.  I'm happy with my relationship experiences and definitely enjoyed my single years.  During my last single stretch, I read books, chatted over hundreds of "coffees," and accepted that it was true - my happiness had to start with me being happy as an independent.  I thought it through and did what I had to do.  I found an unbelievable passion in salsa.  I danced on stage and played characters.  My longtime friends didn't know who I was.  They kept asking when I was going to be on SYTYCD.  My boy promised to slap me if I ever did contemporary or wore a see-through-tight-ass, V (down to the belly button)-Neck shirt.  So I stopped ... jus playin.  Anyways, where was I?  I had a sense of confidence that transcended off the stage and into my normal life.  I was happy.  By this time, I already knew what I wanted and when I would attain it.  I wanted the perfect girl, and I would get her whenever she came along.  Simple rule - don't settle.  I was told I was crazy.  Nobody is perfect.  Relationships always require a lot of effort to make them work.  It's normal.  It's also healthy to fight.  BULLSHIT!  Again, it's all relative, but I refused to go by that philosophy.  Long story short - there was this girl I danced with that was exotic, mestiza, sweet, quiet, chill, calm, elegant ... all things that I liked.  More importantly, she didn't annoy me.  She thought I was "thoughtful" so we hooked up.  Wow.  To all whom I said "BULLSHIT", I TOLD you so!  Honestly, our relationship took off fast (it started last May).  Why not though?  If you're feelin' it, go with it.  We were thrown a curve ball though.  Last September, she was diagnosed with breast cancer.  WTF.  Doctors told us off the bat that the next 8 months or so would be incredibly taxing, in so many ways.  I can never explain exactly what my gf is going through.  I can only imagine.  I've been by her side the whole time though - and from what I can see, she doin' "aight."  I was given reading material which focused on husbands. Wow, talk about fast-forward.  It explained how, in order to keep the relationship strong, the man has to work extra hard, be extra patient, and super caring.  Fertility issues were brought up.  We were 3 months into a relationship!  Hmmm...wow again.  How is it that our bond is becoming stronger at a time during which married couples are advised to work harder against growing apart.  Props to my girl.  Positivity is key.  She IS younger than most cancer patients, and I'm sure that helps physically.  But my answer to all of this ... ?  It's the result of me finding perfection.  I am happily in a relationship that makes me feel like I'm not in one.  I'm not stressin.  I've never put so much non-effort into a relationship, hah.  I'm not whippable, so it's cool that I don't feel like I have to answer to anyone.  I feel free and committed at the same time.  I LOVE being with her, and I'm neutral (although leaning more towards dislike) when I'm not with her.  She can get to the muscles that RMT's can't reach, just by using her fingertips and the slightest of pressure.  If you don't get the sweetness of that, technically it's because it hits my nerves which somehow calm my inner muscles, namely the lower back ones hahaha.  Anyways so ... what's my point again?  Oh yeah.  Happiness.  That's where I'm at now.  My next goal is to establish an automated business so that I can let it run itself while I work minimum wage or volunteer doing something I love.  The 649 would be dope as well!  It's just too bad.  I think you can only hit the jackpot once in life and I just realized it already happened ..... naks!




Thursday, February 3, 2011

HIP HOP FOR HOPE

As you know, I'm participating in the Weekend to End Women's Cancers which is a 60km walk taking place on September 10th and 11th. In order to participate, each person has to raise a minimum of $2,000....yeah its quite alot! So I need to do some fundraising! Hence the idea of "HIP HOP FOR HOPE".

Three of our team walkers are Hip Hop Dancers (including me), so we decided to bring our passion for dance and our Hip Hop dance skills to good use! As one of our fundraising initiatives we will be teaching Hip Hop dance at different schools throughout Toronto. In return, each student will be asked to donate a minimum of $2 to support the Princess Margaret Hospital. Not a lot to ask from the students, but overall it'll make such a big difference!

I'm so excited to be doing this because it helps such a great cause (a very personal cause) and it also promotes healthy active living for the students and allows them to have some fun! Its so fulfilling to me to be involved in something like this, and I'm very thankful to have such great friends supporting me with this venture!


[If you know of any Toronto schools (Elementary schools, High schools, Colleges or Universities) that might be interested in participating, contact me at kristal.wlc@gmail.com for more information.] 

Thursday, January 27, 2011

YIT - The birth of our band

This week was our 2nd session of Youth In Time, where we're going to be making Caribana costumes :)

The first thing we had to do was come up with a theme for our band, and determine what different costumes we would be making. Our theme is going to be "Dance". They asked what I was interested in, and I told them I love to dance....and VOILA....we have a theme!

Then we each picked a type of dance, and will be making a costume based on what we picked. So far, we have the following:

- Blues
- Latin
- Dancehall
- Bollywood
- Soca/Parang
- African

We decided on the colours for each as well. I'm so excited to see how these will turn out! Next week we'll be going on a field trip to shop for our materials (feathers, beads, cloth etc). Its so interesting to see this process from the beginning.....maybe after I can make my own band...hahahaha!


Princess Margaret Wig Boutique (3rd floor)
Every other Tuesday
1:00 to 3:00 pm

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

My 2 minutes of fame!!

Today was an exciting day!! I was on the CP24 news here in Toronto.... twice!!

Never would I have imagined that I would have been asked to do this! You're probably curious how I ended up there? Well, I've told you about the "Weekend to End Women's Cancers" which I will be participating in on September 10-11. Today is National Wear It Pink Day where they are raising awareness of cancers and promoting the weekend, encouraging people to register and walk.

I've been working on some fundraising ideas, and called my 'walker coach' to ask a few questions. She must have decided to check out my personal donation page, where my blog is posted, and then decided to forward my blog to the communications co-ordinator for the walk. They were looking for a survivor to talk about why they are doing the walk, and I guess I was a good fit :) I got the call on Monday asking if I would be interested in being in the news to help out.

I feel pretty honoured that they asked me to do this....so of course I said yes!! Anything I can do to help the cause :)

Then after I was done the first interview in the morning, they asked if I would come back to their studios at 12 to do another interview!! I got there and had my makeup done for me.....I thought: "I could get used to this !!"

So that was my 2 minutes of fame today! It was lots of fun!

www.endcancer.ca/goto/Kristal

With Nalini Sharma the reporter

Reeva and I WEAR IT PINK! Go Team Pink Diamond!

At the CP24 studio being interviewed by Stephen LeDrew
(It's small, but that's me in the middle there...I swear)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

This one is worse!!

At my chemo treatment last Wed, I did get my wish: I only got poked once on Wednesday....they got the vein in the first try ! And I got free cookies!! :)

In fact, everything was going great. I didn't feel any side effects really that day. The day after I was walking about like normal, feeling great. Friday is when I started to feel a little tired, but I was still able to be out and about.

Then it just went downhill from there!! I woke up from pains in my body Friday night. The doctor prescribed me some Tylenol 3 tablets, so I just popped one in and went back to sleep. On Saturday it got worse. I felt like I was 90 years old....all my joints were hurting me and I couldn't stand up for very long.

From Saturday night until this morning (Tues), I've pretty much been in bed the whole time. I've felt so weak. Pains all over my body, like a bad flu. And if that's not bad enough, my stomach has not been too good either (if you know what I mean) and my whole mouth is sore.

When they said the muscle and joint pains will be bad, and that this chemo regiment would be tougher, I really didn't believe them. I thought how bad can muscle pains really be? Ha......well I was wrong!! This is definitely worse than the other chemo cocktail! I hope these pains go away soon.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Why Women in China do not get Breast Cancer

 A LONG BUT VERY INTERESTING READ FOR BOTH MEN AND WOMEN.
(I received this article from more than one person and I just wanted to continue to share it)


                         
WHY WOMEN IN CHINA DO NOT GET BREAST CANCER  By Prof. Jane Plant, PhD, CBE

I had no alternative but to die or to try to find a cure for myself. I am a scientist - surely there was a rational explanation for this cruel illness that affects one in 12 women in the UK ?

I had suffered the loss of one breast, and undergone  radiotherapy I was now receiving painful chemotherapy, and had been seen by some of the country's most eminent specialists. But, deep down, I felt certain I was facing death. I had a loving husband, a beautiful home and two young children to care for. I desperately wanted to live. Fortunately, this desire drove me to  unearth the facts, some of which were known only to a handful of scientists at the time.

Anyone who has come into contact with breast cancer will know that certain risk factors - such as increasing age, early onset of womanhood, late onset of menopause and a family history of breast cancer - are completely out of our control. But there are many risk factors, which we can control easily. These "controllable" risk factors readily translate into  simple changes that we can all make in our day-to-day lives to help prevent or treat breast cancer. My message is that even advanced breast cancer can be overcome because I have done it.

The first clue to understanding what was promoting my breast  cancer came when my husband Peter, who was also a scientist, arrived back from working in China while I was being plugged in for a chemotherapy session. He had brought with him cards and  letters, as well as some amazing herbal suppositories, sent by my friends and science colleagues in China . The suppositories  were sent to me as a cure for breast cancer. Despite the awfulness of the situation, we both had a good belly laugh, and I remember saying that this was the treatment for breast cancer in China , then it was little wonder that Chinese women avoided getting the disease.

Those words echoed in my mind.  Why didn't Chinese women in China get breast cancer?
I had collaborated once with Chinese colleagues on a study of links between soil chemistry and disease, and I remembered some of the statistics. The disease was virtually non-existent throughout the whole country. Only one in 10,000 women in China will die from it, compared to that terrible figure of one in 12 in Britain and the even grimmer average of one in 10 across most Western countries.
It is not just a matter of China being a more rural country, with less urban pollution. In highly urbanized Hong Kong , the rate rises to 34 women in every 10,000 but still puts the West to shame. The Japanese cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki  have similar rates. And remember, both cities were attacked with nuclear weapons, so in addition to the usual pollution-related cancers, one would also expect to find some radiation-related cases, too.

The conclusion we can draw from these statistics strikes you with some force. If a Western woman were to move to industrialized, irradiated Hiroshima , she would slash her risk of contracting breast cancer by half. Obviously this is absurd. It seemed obvious to me that some lifestyle factor not related to pollution, urbanization or the environment is seriously increasing the Western woman's chance of contracting breast cancer.

I then discovered that whatever causes the huge differences in breast cancer rates between oriental and Western countries, it isn't genetic. Scientific research showed that when Chinese or Japanese people move to the West, within one or two generations their rates of breast cancer approach those of their host community. The same thing happens when oriental people adopt a completely Western lifestyle in Hong Kong . In fact, the slang name for breast cancer in China translates as 'Rich Woman's Disease'. This is because, in China , only the better off can afford to eat what is termed ' Hong Kong food'.

The Chinese describe all Western food, including everything from ice cream and chocolate bars to spaghetti  and feta cheese, as "Hong Kong food", because of its availability in the former British colony and its scarcity, in the past, in mainland China .  So it made perfect sense to me that whatever  was causing my breast cancer and the shockingly high incidence in this country generally, it was almost certainly something to do with our better-off, middle-class, Western lifestyle.

There is an important point for men here, too. I have observed in my research that much of the data about prostate cancer leads to similar conclusions. According to figures from the World Health Organization, the number of men contracting prostate cancer in rural China is negligible, only 0.5 men in every 100,000. In England , Scotland and Wales , however, this figure is 70 times higher. Like breast cancer, it is a middle-class disease that primarily attacks the wealthier and higher socio-economic groups, those that can afford to eat rich foods.

I remember saying to my husband, "Come on Peter, you have just come back  from China . What is it about the Chinese way of life that is so different?" Why don't they get breast cancer?' We decided to utilize our joint scientific backgrounds and approach it  logically. We examined scientific data that pointed us in the general direction of fats in diets.
Researchers had discovered in the 1980s that only l4% of calories in the average Chinese diet were from fat, compared to almost 36% in the West. But the diet I had been living on for years before I contracted breast cancer was very low in fat and high in fibre. Besides, I knew as a scientist that fat intake in adults has not been shown to increase risk for breast cancer in most investigations that have followed large groups of women for up to a dozen years.

Then one day something rather special happened Peter and I have worked together so closely over the years that I am not sure which one of us first said:
"The Chinese don't eat dairy produce!"
It is hard to explain to a non-scientist the sudden mental and emotional 'buzz' you get when you know you have had an important insight. It's as if you have had a lot of pieces of a jigsaw in your mind, and suddenly, in a few seconds, they all fall into place and the whole picture is clear.

Suddenly I recalled how many Chinese people were physically unable to  tolerate milk, how the Chinese people I had worked with had always said that milk was only for babies, and how one of my close friends, who is of Chinese origin, always politely turned down the cheese course at dinner parties.

I knew of no Chinese people who lived a traditional Chinese life who ever used cow or other dairy food to feed their babies. The tradition was to use a wet nurse but never, ever, dairy products. Culturally, the Chinese find our Western preoccupation with milk and milk products very   strange. I remember entertaining a large delegation of Chinese scientists shortly after the ending of the Cultural Revolution in the 1980s. On advice from the Foreign Office, we had asked the caterer to provide a pudding that contained a lot of ice cream After inquiring what the pudding consisted of, all of the Chinese, including their interpreter, politely but firmly refused to eat it, and they could not be persuaded to change their minds. At the time we were all delighted and ate extra portions!

Milk, I discovered, is one of the most common causes of food allergies. Over 70% of the world's population are unable to digest the milk sugar, lactose, which has led nutritionists to believe that this is the normal condition for adults, not some sort of deficiency. Perhaps nature is trying to tell us that we are eating the wrong food.

Before I had breast cancer for the first time, I had eaten a lot of dairy produce, such as skimmed milk, low-fat cheese and yogurt. I had used it as my main source of protein. I also ate cheap but lean minced beef, which I now realized was probably often ground-up dairy cow.

In order to cope with the chemotherapy I received for my fifth case of cancer, I had been eating organic yogurts as a way of helping my digestive tract to recover and repopulate my gut with 'good' bacteria.

Recently, I discovered that way back in 1989 yogurt had been implicated in ovarian cancer. Dr Daniel Cramer of Harvard University studied hundreds of women with ovarian cancer, and had them record in detail what they normally ate. Wish I'd been made aware of his findings when he had first discovered them.
Following Peter's and my insight into the Chinese diet, I decided to give up not just yogurt but all dairy produce immediately. Cheese, butter, milk and yogurt and anything else that contained dairy produce - it went down the sink or in the rubbish.
It is surprising how many products, including commercial soups, biscuits and cakes, contain some form of dairy produce Even many proprietary brands of margarine marketed as soya, sunflower or olive oil spreads can contain dairy produce. I therefore became an avid reader of the small print on food labels.

Up to this point, I had been steadfastly measuring the progress of my fifth cancerous lump with callipers and plotting the results. Despite all the encouraging comments and positive feedback from my doctors and nurses, my own precise observations told me the bitter truth.

My first chemotherapy sessions had produced no effect - the lump was still the same size. Then I eliminated dairy products. Within days, the lump started to shrink. About two weeks after my second chemotherapy session and one week after giving up dairy produce, the lump in my neck started to itch. Then it began to soften and to reduce  in size. The line on the graph, which had shown no change, was now pointing downwards as the tumour got smaller and smaller. And, very significantly, I noted that instead of declining exponentially (a graceful curve) as cancer is meant to do, the tumour's decrease in size was plotted on a straight line heading off the bottom of the graph, indicating a cure, not suppression (or remission) of the tumour.

One Saturday afternoon after about six weeks of excluding all dairy produce from my diet, I practised an hour of meditation then felt for what was left of the lump. I couldn't find it. Yet I was very experienced at detecting cancerous lumps - I had discovered all five cancers on my own. I went downstairs and asked my husband to feel my neck. He could not find any trace of the lump either.

On the following Thursday I was due to be seen by my cancer specialist at  Charing Cross Hospital in London . He examined me thoroughly, especially my neck where the tumour had been. He was initially bemused and then delighted as he said, "I cannot find it." None of my doctors, it appeared, had expected someone with my type and stage of cancer (which had clearly spread to the lymph system) to survive, let alone be so hale and hearty.

My specialist was as overjoyed as I was. When I first discussed my ideas with him he was understandably sceptical. But I understand that he now uses maps showing cancer mortality in China in his lectures, and recommends a non-dairy diet to his cancer patients.

I now believe that the link between dairy produce and breast cancer is similar to the link between smoking and lung cancer.
I believe that identifying the link between breast cancer and dairy produce, and then developing a diet specifically targeted at maintaining the health of my breast and hormone system, cured me.
It was difficult for me, as it may be for you, to accept that a substance as 'natural' as milk might have such ominous health implications. But I am a living proof that it works and, starting from tomorrow, I shall reveal the secrets of my revolutionary action plan.

Extracted from Your Life in Your Hands, by Professor Jane Plan

Youth In Time

A few weeks ago I went to a Head Wrap workshop at the hospital. I learnt some of the African head wrapping techniques, and it was so much fun! The women who run the program are amazing. They're so full of positive energy, and they volunteer their time to do this because they love to see the smiles on the faces of the cancer patients!

When I was at this session they informed me of a new program that they were now starting up, this time with a focus on the youth (under 30.....Yay I'm still a youth!!). "Youth In Time" was developed to help the youth battling cancer. Its a program where we can meet up once every 2 weeks, and just have fun!! For their first project, guess what we're making....ok I'll just tell you....a Carnival/Caribana costume!! As this is such a big part of my Trinidad culture, I couldn't be more excited! I've worn the costumes, and been admiring them from since I could remember, but I have no idea what making one entails. So I'm really thrilled to be a part of this!



Our first meeting was last week, just for us to get acquainted with each other, and discuss the plans for the next few months. It sounds very promising. Thanks Paulene, Naza and Judiene for making this happen!